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"What is your greatest regret in life?"
If I’m being completely honest & allow myself to be vulnerable enough to admit this, & this is really hard for me to admit but…my greatest regret in life was giving myself up to my now ex-boyfriend.
We’re both Christians. But like I said before, be careful about dating someone just because they’re in church. Not everyone in church is delivered, some of them will pull you into sin. & as much as I like to blame him, I can’t blame him entirely. It was also my choice to give it up to him. I loved him & I was ready to marry him. I even went so far as to try to justify my sin saying that it was ok because he promised that we would get married anyways, so what’s the harm in giving him the gift early if he was to be my future husband? I was so convinced that he was a true man of God. But when lust crept in between the relationship, we both lost sight of God. God was no longer in the picture & I let myself become captive to this sin.
Eventually we broke up for small reasons only to find out that he had been using me & was seeing my now ex-bestfriend that I grew up with since we were young kids. I can’t even begin to explain to you how heartbreaking this whole situation was to me without giving you all the back story. But losing who I thought was the love of my life & also losing a bestfriend in the process was heartbreaking. Even more heartbreaking was losing myself, what I stood for, & losing what I can never get back.
For a long time, I couldn’t forgive him. Or her for that matter. & it took me longer to be able to forgive myself for the choices I’ve made. I allowed a man to take something from me that I should have never given up. I’ve been walking with God since I was 7. Everyone who knows me knows how much I love God & how I stood firm in my faith. Girls used to look up to me & people expected so much more. I used to be a strong advocate against premarital sex & at the time of testing, I fell apart & gave in. I felt like I let people down, I let myself down, & more importantly…I let God down. I felt so dirty, I couldn’t even face God because I was so ashamed.
Then one night, when I was crying. I was reminded of the story of the woman that was brought before Jesus because she was caught in the act of adultery. According to their laws, she was supposed to be stoned for the sin she had committed. But instead, Jesus told them “let he who is without sin cast the first stone.” & they all walked away, because they knew that no one is without sin. Then Jesus lovingly turned to her & said he wasn’t here to condemn her. He told her “Go now, & leave your life of sin.” I can only imagine how she felt at that moment. From feeling so, so, so ashamed & dirty…to feeling forgiven & free.
When I laid my sin at the foot of the cross & left it there. It was as if I was that woman. & I felt forgiven. I no longer felt captive to my sin or to my past, but instead I felt free. Jesus has set me free from it. & I know not to look back, but leave that sin behind & move on. One day, God will give me someone I can truly walk with. Someone who will accept my past & love me thru all the mistakes I’ve made & will make. Until that day, I will glorify Him as a single woman & stand firm in saving myself until the one God has planned for me comes into my life & we stand before God & unite as one in marriage.
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